That four letter word

Friday, 22nd Feb. 2008
I may want to term it as 'writer's block', but that's just inappropriate in my case. So, on that pompous note, let me begin with this my second one.

What am I gonna talk about today? Try hard I did to speak on something other than 'Love', but I'm afraid it's the only topic worth writing about at this moment.
'To love, I'd rhapsodize' - Bono
Isn't it the same with all of us?

*Three things that have kept me awake lately:
a.) Parents
b.) Life with a room-mate &
c.) Love for my bike.
(You just knew I HAD to add that third one, didn't you?!) :-)
--I've been real bad over the last 5-6 years. Far from sounding like a five year old writing to Father Christmas why he still deserves to get gifts on a snowy morning, the point I'm trying to get across is, "Have I been a good son?"
All the events from the last half-decade have lead to these last few days.
Days of realisation, of a heightened level of conscience, days of foundation. Foundation of the man this world shall see a further half-decade from now.I shan't get into details, as I wanna KISS this one(Keep It Short & Simple, or such other variations that you're familiar with.) People my age will definitely identify with this plateau amongst life's many hills. The one where you finally get rid of the 'angry young man' image. The image in which you did everything for people & things that don't really matter and in the process caused hurt & heartache to those that really do. Parents in this context.
There, you get the raison d'etre of Point 'a'. As for the answer to that question, I'd like to believe that I've gone from 'Bad' to 'Not so bad'.
But I must add this. I would never reach here without YOU. Where I use the second person to refer to 'a few good men'. The close friends that HE thought right to bless me with. So Cheers to you guys & gals! I love y'all and will always be there for you.

--Aah! Life with a roomie. The last 4 years have cemented my belief in the words 'Live-in Relationship'. Of course, what I've experienced is still far away from the real thing. You know, the real thing involves living with a person of the opposite gender! Now, don't brand me as 'Swaying the Other Way'.
Patience is a virtue, so bear with my ranting and don't go trigger happy with that judgemental-gun in your head. Anyway, the point is, apart from bringing to light every little/great quality or malady of the other, living with someone also imbibes a level of tolerance in you. It makes you think about the other and how you can make things better just by spending time together. It has made me look forward to living with someone belonging to the fairer sex. But that's still a (VERY) distant prospect. For now, I'm in love with not being in love. Solace in solitude as I usually say.
I'm a firm believer in the following description of love-- Love is a multi-faceted emotion, action & of course word. To love means to sacrifice, to compromise, to put into deed. It's not just a word used in a directive sentence, like how some people abuse it, by saying it to anyone and everyone without any significance and then bad-mouthing about the very same people they said it to.
When you utter the words "I Love You", it doesn't only imply your emotional attachment to a person/thing. It entails that you Can & Are Willing To do anything to make that person happy. Parents, friends, partner, bikes(in my case). How exactly does one go about keeping a machine happy is not something I'm gonna delve into now. For obvious reasons.[You know what! I'm gonna skip Point 'c'. It's destined for an altogether different blog.]

Love is a great responsibility. Shouldering it can make you find yourself flying on Cloud no. 9 or amidst sharp thorns and menacing weeds on untreated ground.
At the end of the day, for me, the single most important aspect of personal life is 'making others happy'. That my dear, is the key to self-happiness too. It requires time & effort. Sounds like a 10-year plan, doesn't it? Well, that's exactly what it is! This can be attained with 'Love' & by extension is a 'key' that needs to be manufactured right from molten steel to filing of its teeth. With 'You' as the only labourer enduring, until with one small twist, its finally open.

First things first and more...

Friday, 21st Dec. 2007
Yeah, a different band to inspire me this time. Not Coldplay as usual, although they still hold the no. 1 spot on my list of inspiring music. Right now, it's 'Learn to Fly' by Foo Fighters.
Hmm, its been quite a while since I last sat down with you. By the way, I don't consider inanimate objects as my friends/confidants, etc. unless of course it has wheels. :-) This ain't a 'Dear Diary', more like speaking to the 'Inner Self' and saving those conversations in ink or print or blogs in this case. Why? Mostly because I've nothing better to do. lol...
I've had it with these crushes and puppy love situations. Up to here I tell you!'Enough Now!' Like the hopelessly in love character from 'Love Actually', albeit, its easier said than done, specially with matters of the heart.
Apart from the absolute lack of work to do & of course the inspiring musikka, I figured, if this is what helps me preserve myself(Thanks Abbey!), then I better shun my laziness and get down & dirty. [Sometimes, the writing part does get dirty you know!]
Putting the day's countless thoughts on paper really aids in de-stressing the mind.(Why Lord? Why do we need these thoughts? As if life's other troubles aren't enough!)
This is the best part of writing and blogging. Helps me listen to my self, helps me put things in perspective.Some say it's the conscience while others say its the divine presence of God Himself speaking to us. I like to believe that its God speaking to us through our conscience.
You know, since June I've been writing so much of stuff. Wish I could show it to all to you guys(who are apparently as bekaar as me if your reading this), but even though this blog is undeniably personal and I have no issues with sharing it with the world, there are certain things that are 'un-shareable' at best.

Which brings me to the term 'CONFIDANT.'

Isn't it funny how your various relationships can be confusing? Those with Family, Priests, Friends, Professors, Doctors, etc Specially the latter three. The heart may be just a muscle working involuntarily. But it's this very randomness of the heart that can catch you off-guard. Then again, not everything is done with being overwhelmed by emotion.
Its all in the mind baby. It has the innate ability to make things happen even when you know only too well that they won't happen.
The thing with confidants is that they are just that and nothing else. You are both very important in each others lives but its up to you the 'confidantee' if I may say so, to keep things that way and not complicate such a beautiful relationship. They are unique. Earth Angels even! Come to think of it, everyone I'm close to is a true gem. Seriously! Of course I do believe that everyone is made unique. It's just that I don't see that uniqueness until I'm really close to them.
What's that I hear you say? You think I'm just confused?No, NO!...............To me it's just a given that comes with being a 20-something. I prefer to use the term 'learning curve.' (The fact that it took me a good 60 seconds to come up with a substitute word, just so that I don't sound like every other confused 20-something, IS irrelevant!)And no, I'm not trying to describe the functions of various body parts either.
Aah! I've reached Coldplay.Let me sign off by saying, no matter what happens, just make sure you hang in there & have NO REGRETS.
'Life is a lesson, you'll learn it when your through', sang Fred Durst.I say, why learn it when your through? To enjoy a fruitful life, you just have to learn these on the way. It isn't rocket science you know! So don't wait till its too late.
Peace and God bless y'all