Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Juvenile Dilemma

Often within it transpires,
A heart that never tires.
Fate brings a new visage,
Veins fill up with cortisol,
And my immune renders useless.
--
I tell myself it’s déjà vu,
There’s no taking this further.
I say to the mirror, who the hell are you?
And I’ve already gone farther.
90 seconds is the least they say,
Fancy someone? You very well may.
--
But,
The head stops me,
While heart pumps rapidly.
Mustered from mustard,
I call upon past wisdom
And sanity prevails.
--
Gazes meet, smiles exchange,
Virgin conversations lay the plinth.
Intellect now overtakes,
Adrenaline is subdued,
And I remain a good friend.
--
Friendship blossoms,
Bonds are built,
Trust me to care,
Forever I’d dare.
With thoughts laid bare,
And secrets now shared.
Painfully more I care,
And stronger the bonds get.
--
Time & laughter,
Lavishly spent.
Logic & thought,
To a miser’s content.
Eyes memorize their body’s lingo,
Heart puts my brain into limbo.
I now am a close friend.
--
Joy that seems limitless,
In the happiness that is found.
Platonic love outspoken,
Shamelessly I say,
Never can it be broken.
Comfortable in this bliss,
I say to the mirror,
Thou shalt do nothing more,
Lest you make me pine for this.
--
But..(sigh)

Silently the head plays,
This time a different tune.
Cupidly directing,
Thoughts are brought to light,
In every moment of sight,
Setting my receptors alight.
--
And if you’re smart,
Oh how I pity your plight!
--
My will, at times, IS fortified.
I settle for less they say.
These voices,
They seldom cease.
Got no one to blame,
They are but mine.
--
Conflicts arise,
And the naiveté of plausible loss, oh god!

It’s this grief,
To self that I spare.
Far too much have I put in,
Too precious a bond I have built.
I’d rather have this grass,
Than love’s dopamine.
For once, it’s greener on this side.
--
Yet again,
The head, divided like its hemispheres,
Knows all too well.
That uneasiness is the key,
To eternal happiness.
Should then I give this desire a miss?


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